456# The Beginning is Near

The government really caught us unprepared.

According to our seniors, usually we will be called for induction during May and then we will start working around end of May. But this time the situation didn't apply to us.

Before March ends we have received the letter from the government that our induction is 5th to 8th April 2011. Further information revealed that we will start working at 11th of April 2011.

We only have 1 month of holiday since graduation!

There are so many paper works to be done. Firstly the registration to the Medical Council and registration to the Public Service Commission, then followed by confirmation of induction to the latter.

Will no longer get to see the sun from home...

We then wait for our university to send our academic transcript to the medical council, which will then give us the provisional registration form. This is ultimately needed so that we are qualified to go for the induction. We also need full body checkup, chest X ray, urine test before practice as a doctor...

If reading this make you feel confused, you will even be more disappointed and irritated when you are in the situation. The government never fail to annoy those who are dealing with them. This administration incompetency is our major factor which impede our nation from progressing. And this nationwide known problem has been cursing the people and sadly nothing has been done to rectify it.

Having my new found life within such a short time , I'm feeling heavy-hearted to progress forward. Not just I'll need to dedicate 16 hours/day, 7 days/week of my time to work, I would use the rest of my time to rest or study.

Sad to say, working as a doctor is never been easy. We have experienced it as students back then, which was quite bad, now once being qualified the stress is even more.

No matter what it is I will try, to seek a balance between my work and my life. Although it will not be easy, but I have overcame all the obstacles in my life prior becoming a doctor. And thus I hope I would overcome this too.

Less than a week to go, then we will be zombie doctors.

455# 25th March 2011

The calendar marked the brand new chapter,

Through all the pain I have survived under,

She came to me like a light bringer,

In my brain carved the image of Her.

Alone in the dark with Her picture,

After all the blood and the wasted tears,

The sun still shines after these years,

From six feet under I fell in love with Her.

As I handed Her the flowers,

Of three roses shone with crimson red in color,

She smiled without giving an answer,

Without fear I waited beside of Her.

Patience and perseverance be my neighbor,

Crawled out of darkness just to see Her,

Wait; please don’t walk any further,

Not there, stay with me and be here.

I held her close and whisper,

To Her ears, that I missed Her,

Please walk with me together,

Towards our lives, we live forever.

454# Lost in Navigation

Today, I have wasted a friend's precious time due to poor preparation and sense of direction.

I really have the urge to end the sentence above with the usual three-letter word like how I always do in fb status.

So, we wanted to go to Putrajaya for the hot air balloon fiesta. Friend's friend said today (21st March 2011) is the last day of the event, and what I have read online during my research said so too. But my youngest sister told me that it has ended yesterday.

Sunset view from Putrajaya Seafood Restaurant.

It wasn't hard to get to Putrajaya from Bukit Jalil, thanks to the new highway. It wasn't hard to get to Prestin 2 either, where the event was held. Once we reached there, we were greeted by empty canopies and aftermaths.

Having read the notice board placed there, we got to know that my youngest sister's information was indeed correct...

So, I consoled myself by telling my friend that I could bring her to see the bridges at night before they looked nice when lighted up. However, the journey to find for a restaurant there in Putrajaya was a huge challenge for me.

That was the third time I drive there but I have no knowledge of that place at all. Failed to locate the mall which we were seeking through the google map in my phone, we settled ourselves at the Putrajaya Seafood Restaurant.

Taken during 2007, my first time in Putrajaya.

So after the dinner we made our way to the bridge. The moment I spot the bridge ahead of me, the sky started to pour. I did make a mistake this time, by thinking that the lights are multi-colored. No, it was not. And now I check back the photo I have taken back in year 2007, yes the bridge is only lighted by white color lights...

Double blunder.

Taken during 2007, this is the second bridge I went.

Therefore in the end, we didn't get to see the hot air balloon, we didn't get to see and take photos at "colorful beautiful bridges". Oh well, at least the scenery from the restaurant.

Having wasted half a day of my friend's time, now she is going to rush her work...

Thank you so much!

Hmm, this is a good start of me reviving this page. I shall do this more often.

453# The Sinister Calling

This could be the longest hiatus I've ever taken since this page was born back to the end of year 2004.

It's been 6 months and a few minutes ago I decided to resuscitate this site. It doesn't really matter anyway, since no one is really it. Are you?



When I started this page I was still doing my college studies. The ranting goes along until I finished college, taking the half a year break, entered the medical university.

After 5 years of hard work in the medical university, and now I've completed my studies, and graduated as a medical doctor.

When I look back, the path I took was not easy. From a person who was illiterate in English I have managed to learn and survived the harsh conditions in the medical school and hospital ward work. I can proudly say, nothing is impossible.

The joy of graduating my degree was, actually nothing.... as expected. Each time after I pass my End of Semester exams, I didn't feel any happiness which I was supposed to have. It rather expressed in the form of sigh of relieve.

Immediately after getting our results and passed as doctors, me and my friends returned to the place where everything begins - Bukit Jalil campus to practice for our performance for our graduation ball.

As always, last minute practice. Luckily it was just a small performance between three of us. Everything went smooth except that my lead kind of off when I got distracted by my friend who walked onto the stage during the performance.

Graduation ball, where all the new born doctors meet each other in full number for the last time. A night full of photo takings, laughter, reminiscence, and gratefulness.

That was the night, where I thanked a person who was the main source of my pain, just to sum things up, and wish the person all the best.

"Thank you for all the pain".

Once ball was over we packed and we reached Vietnam after 1 day post ball. With the same friends whom I been to Singapore with a few months ago, we traveled up north for our graduation trip. The 6 days trip was fun, hectic, and extremely adventurous.

Overall it was very enjoyable, nice food, cheap beer, nice experience. With exception that the Can to town was flooded during the evening when we got there. But we took it as a different kind of enjoyment.

One day after touching down back to my country, we met up again for BKT meeting and then the I-city visit. Adrian called it "Electr-I-city" which I have to agree. That could be one of the last gathering between us, which I don't wish to. I really miss them now.

Having been through the most difficult times back in semester 9, I'd say the end of semester 10 was another new beginning for me.

Meeting a person who could potentially change my life a few days before exam has gave me the chance to view things from the other aspect. This change that I am having now will support me through out my life. And I hope it will.

"Thank you for coming into my life"