39# Of Dark Blood and Fucking

39# Of Dark Blood and Fucking

I dunno how am i goin to study so many shits for my A2 trial. Next week is already the practical papers and now i'm still trying to finish the syllabus. Fuck. I got 4 subjects. The most now i think is maths. How am i goin to do vectors wei. 3 dimensionals somemore. 2 dimension is already killing me and now we have to fucking deal with 3. Mechanics is really an interesting and pissing off paper. Ms Shoba used an hour class to teach us a question. A really tough one. And in fact, we got 6 -7 ques for this paper and must be completed within 1 hour and 15 minutes. How are we goin to complete the ques? All of it are so godamn sick. Just a simple diagram and some given values. They can twist the ques upside down. Somehow i still like mechanics. Bcoz at least it's better than the fucking pure maths paper.

1 more week for theory papers. We still have options topic to go but everything is goin to come out in the exam. God. We must finish the syllabus, study all the shits, do the past year trials papers just within a week. How are we goin to score it? Trial is absolutely trial, try try only, every one will sie in the end...

Recently there are so many stupid problems surrounding me. Everything involved. Life, family, relationship, studies, exams, tensions, future studies. God, fuck tat shit.
I noe u are testing me but for sure i'm goin to go thru all of these.
U can take His life away from us, but we are still having His blood within us.
Grandpa i love u always.

38# No way out

38# No way out

Recently i'm damn headache about my further studies. I dunno wat the hell am i goin to study after my A levels. Medicine is undoubtedly a goddamn hard course for me to take. I dun even noe tat can i stand the pressure of studying medicine or not... Civil engineering is also encouraged by my Dad. Once i graduate, i can spend few years on working to the others to get working experience. And then i can set up a company with the others to earn more money. These are all just my Dad's plans. I dunno will it work in the future. Who the hell say Msia got no more land to develop? If this is true, than Msian cant have any new born babies since the population is increasing dramatically with geometric progression?

Other than medicine and civil engineering, I did considered about Biotech and Bio medic... But he doenst want me to study those 'Half- medicine" courses... ah, this is damn sick.
I'm in deep shit. What the fuck am i goin to do after my A levels? Everyone in my class is busy for interviews in the UK, or applying universities in Aus and stuffs...
Me? Still in a deep shit. How can i apply shits since i dun even noe what am i goin to study?
Damn it man... i need time to consider...
1 more month left, then it's A2 trial... few weeks more after tat, A2 final...
And then... hope i can figure it out...