449# Goodbye Seremban

For a place which we have stayed for the past 2 years, Seremban was not too bad afterall.

Of course it took me months to get used to stay there, since that was the first time of me staying outside home, living outside my comfort zone.

It is such a small place and I guess I have finished discovering the place, except the hill outside my house - I have not go for the hill hiking although I have stayed there for so long!



After taking our End of Semester 9 result, we went home to enjoy our short break. Most of the people moved their stuffs to Batu Pahat straight after exams. But I think that was quite time consuming. Therefore 3 days before the commence of Semester 10, we went back to Seremban to pack, and move out on the next day. Go south straight and start our new semester straight away there.

I thought packing was easy since I had little stuffs with me, and I always keep my items organised. But there were bits and bits of stuffs here and there and when they added up it could really be time consuming.



I literally emptied my room. I brought along my exercutive chair and mattress, which took up most of the space of my car. Thankfully my car space was huge enough, I even carried my stand fan, stand lamp, plenty of buckets, mops, broom, dust pans, and all other stuffs from the house which other cars could not fit.

One bad thing was that I have brought my electric guitar and amplifier back to hometown. If I didn't do that I wouldn't have fit them into my car. Therefore when I was in Batu Pahat last week, I was forced to perform with my wrecked, 11 years old acoustic guitar.



Talk about cleaning, we didn't throw those we regarded recycle-able. Within these period the number of bottles outside the room practically filled up the whole space in there. We spent sometime to crush the bottles one by one so that it's easier to pack them up and carry them away.



And throw them into the recycle station outside our house.

But somehow the rubbish bag that I bought which contained those crushed bottles burst, though.



The study table and book shelf which I bought from Tesco were given to my ex-landlord at next door. With only the wardrobe left, I walked out from my four walled room and say goodbye to the place which I have lived for the past 2 years, the place I studied in order to see multiple patients and cases.

Goodbye Seremban.

PS: Will be going to Seremban again on Friday to visit my patient. Just when I thought it was over...

448# Jeg skal gå videre

Looking back Semester 9, how much we have learnt?

Academically, we are almost done as for an undergraduate. Apart from this, there are still some other minor parts that make up a person. And these minor things are feelings which make a person a human.

Stress is inevitable when studying. I think I could more or less handle the stress of exams, since I have been through so many exams in the past like the rest of us.

However, there were still things which I failed to handle.



I would say semester 9 was the most extreme part of my life so far for the past 24 years. I have been through the happiest moment in my life during this period, and in the other hand, the most depressive period ever.

If the stress was from exams then it would be much easier to handle. But that time I experienced something that I had not face in the past of my life. In short I was mentally traumatised.

I was traumatised so badly and I failed to function as a person. There were multiple times I broke down and significant amount of time was wasted because I could not study due to the stress.

Inside of me, was totally burnt, charred, and crushed into pieces. I would not blame anyone over this since I was responsible for the matter at the same time. But no matter what, it was too hard for me to handle, on how cruel reality would be.



If I were to think things positively, I would not say that I did not gain anything from this pain. At least I get to know more about the world and more about pain.

"It was so painful til it doesn't hurt anymore"

I numbed myself so badly with alcohol but it only gave me more grief and a bad hang over the next day. Through out the exam study break I still had to constantly fuel myself with the substance to push me forward and I found it difficult to control, and even significant amount of money was wasted for that.

I know it was really bad for me to do this but thankfully, there were a few people around me who were there for me, talked to me and occupied my idle time from thinking unnecessary things.



I was glad that I was not alone, and these people supported me emotionally to get through our final exam. Although they did not directly help me in my problems but what they did was just being there for me, and that was more than enough.

Being through so many depressive episodes and I would say that was the worst one, ever. But unlike the past, although it was caused by a different type of stress, at least I cherish my own life better this time.

However, every time when I was studying, I could not help myself from thinking about the mistake that I had made again. It was haunting, exhausting and traumatising. Two months worth of extreme stress, luckily I managed to pass the final exam.

There is nothing to be done to avoid the same tragedy from happening again but at least I will be more cautious and stronger next time.



"And everything finishes and dies tonight".


- farvel og lykke til, jeg vil gå videre.

447# Gundam Fix Figuration Metal Composite Review - #0000 Limited MSZ-006A1/C1[Bst] Z plus [Blue]

Super long blog title!

Alright, i know this is kind of late, first review of the year of 2010.

Thi is the second model I bought this year actually, the first being the GFFMC #1004 RX-78-2, which I have yet to take the photos therefore the review will be postponed.



The heaviest, most expensive GFFMC so far with the killing price of 18,900 yen. The GFFMC Unicorn Gundam has the same price tag as well with 1/3 of this Z plus's box size therefore I still don't have the courage and money to buy it.

I bid this item off from ebay after a long period of consideration. Anyway it's not easy to regurgitate 18,900 yen that easily from a person like me who is still financially dependent. The seller contacted me fast enough and the next day I met him at Mid Valley for Cash on Delivery.



I travelled from Seremban to Mid Valley by train for this purpose. Having the need to carry such a big box but it was worthy. Not only being a limited model, I also got my hands on it with a fairly reasonable price, around 16,200 yen.

The first time I travelled by train all the way to KL was for the Revoltech NR-EX Evangelion unit 3, reviewed here.

>

Within this mega sized box lies 3 layers of parts, consist the main body and its equipments on the first layer, booster packs on the second and the stand for necessary modes on the third. It comes with a extra sheet of dry transfer decals too in case you think that the decals aren't overwhelming enough for you. See how the parts occupy my whole Ikea coffee table!

Having labeled as the worst paint job of the GFFMC line ever, I deeply find this reason acceptable. This is not a fully painted model unlike the previous releases. Mainly it's because of its transformable features, which may make paint scratches a pain in the ass.

However, most of the people still find it unacceptable. Me too in same way, because some of the parts should be painted, like the beam cannons!



The parts are huge but surprisingly light. Having die cast metal parts at the crucial joints like the hip, shoulder, arm, ankle and such means that it will not have weight issue when the parts are attached to them.

The die cast parts not only added the stability to the joints, the weight does help in making the model to stand up better too. But however, having backpacks and way too heavy thights, I found the Ver Ka stance a little bit too difficult to exercute, without having the fear of it falling down.



Snap in the parts for the A1 mode and you're done. I found the A1 mode the mst pleasant to my eyes among all the 6 modes. Maybe I prefer the model to be as light, as clean as possible. More add ons = more stress on the joints = reduced shelve life, and that's no good for me.

I had it posed in standby mode for the past 2 months in my Seremban room before I carried it back home.



The joints are stable before of the die cast parts and the knee joints even have the cogwheel effect like the revoltech joints, which I found it to be interesting. However the range of movement isn't wide, not an important criteria of Katoki designed products anyway.



Imitating the cover of the Master Grade Zeta 3 Gundam.

You can still pose around with it but it is not something that I usually do. The only time I test the range of movement is when I take shoots of it.



Changing the front armor, backpack, add on some fuel cylinders, put on the combined shield with S-Gundam's beam smart gun and you will get the space use C1 mode.

The beam smart gun is too long for god sake but I find very difficult to move around. But it's a +1 for those who like big cannon, me myself included. Contradicting?



And of course, the standard beam sabers. Two of them.

I didn't take shots of these A1 and C1 modes in Waverider form during this shooting session because it's really time consuming!

The ultimate C1[Bst] form will be up when I have time.

446# Enden av semesteret 9, Fullført

I have never neglect this web log this much ever since 2004.

From minimum one post per week to minimum one post per month, I have no written anything in the past for the whole two months. And even the previous post was just a filler.



Anyway, End of Semester 9 exam is over and I'm taking a break off for a few days at home.

The exam was tough. Really. MEQ and OSPE were ok but I think I didn't do that well for the Long and Short OSCE. After OSPE paper, my friend already ask me to booze and yeah that's it.


The first birthday present - same since year 2006.

98.7% of us made it and we are going to batu pahat for our last semester this weekend. I haven't even shift my stuffs to there yet! To best thing is that I have not seen the house which I am going to stay for the next half a year.



Second birthday present - the handmade meow meow by yokie. Thanks a lot! My birthday is kind of sad because each of every year it falls on the day which they take our results. After that everyone is either gone back to hometown or shifting their stuffs to batu pahat.

So, a few days ago I met up with grandiose chan and my housemates to have lunch at umai-ya. It was highly recommended by yokie who is currently suffering in the land of no bah kut tea at kelantan.



RM55.4o for an unlimited ala carte order is heavenly! Food presentation, taste were good and it makes Jogoya an over-rated place. I'd say this place worth your money more. You don't get the visual joy of having tonnes of food selection in front of you, but in turn you get the comfort of ticking food off the menu and having your food served right in front of you while you are chit chatting with your friends.

I'm not a heavy eater so I'm the biggest loser when it comes to buffet. All my friends have expandable stomach so they practically skip their dinner after eating this heavy lunch.



After lunch I flew down to Times Square to grab some mechanical stuffs. Thanks to Dato Yong again for the direction...

I have corrupted grandiose chan enough and he bought more than he planned. I have somewhat quit buying gundam plastic models but I can't help to get my hands on this newly designed line - the Real Grade RX78-2. This is the first time I buy a plastic model of this bapa gundam and the first time of me buying a same model as grandiose chan. So this photo is kinda memorable.



"We don't need to meet again, I'll see you and you'll see me when we make it big" - Chan.

After this on week break, we will need to pick up our pace again for the last semester. The finish line is just right ahead of us and that's it. Half a year more to go!


PS: We're going for a BKT meeting tonight. I feel bad for you yokie :(